i’m not like this.

i hate that i can’t focus on the good right now. i hate that my happiness is at the liberty of other people. i hate that i can not be content with everything i have, and instead focus on what is lacking in my life. i pray for peace. i pray that i acknowledge all the love that is surrounding me and that i can delight in this and this alone. i want to find my God again. i want to be unconditionally happy again.