tomorrow!

i can’t believe i move back to school in just a matter of hours now. by around 9 am i will begin situating myself in my home away from home, and i couldn’t be more excited. i am so eager to discover more of myself and continue to grow and encounter new and exciting experiences and people at school! that being said, this transition, though familiar, carries with it some anxiety. i fear that things may not live up to my expectations. i have became so comfortable in my home. what if i begin to long for my family and the routine i established here? though it is plausible that this could happen, i pray that it be brief-as it was last year-and that i become thoroughly engaged in all that awaits me at school. the fact that, immediately after returning, i will start training for my ITS position and begin coordinating with the nearby shelter definitely keeps me at ease. no matter where i am or my current emotional state, i can always rely on the unrelenting, unconditional love of animals to warm my heart. the fact that i have a car this year will enable me to spend time with the animals whenever i see fit. knowing that i have immediate and welcomed access to my sanctuary a mere five minutes from campus is just so comforting.

that being said, i have resumed my very, very close relationship with my mother this summer. it is vital that i keep in better touch with her. last year i i knew it was necessary that i grow independent of my mother. for fear of not acclimating well to the college lifestyle and longing for the comfort of home, i hesitated contacting her too regularly. now that i know i can attain a balance and devote attention to my family both at and away from home, i will be sure better integrate my mom into my life this semester. even if it isn’t a lengthy phone call, i will remain a constant presence in her life via text or email. it is important that she know i am thinking of her. and i could sure benefit from seeking her counsel more often, experiencing her humor, or deriving some of her love and affection every now and then.

But i still have one last day with mom during move-in tomorrow. i’m actually looking forward to arranging my room to my liking and shopping for all the amenities when i get there. it will be a busy day, but a time to be treasured nonetheless. though i’ll be saying good-bye to my mom (and my dogs slash children), i will be greeted with some of my friends already on campus and the academic, social, and spiritual journey that awaits. i am so ready for my new beginning.